what are you committed to?

We are in the middle of doing "The Purpose Driven Life" sermon series at church.  This week is all about discipleship.  I was reading a part of the book that really spoke into my life today. Rick Warren said, "Tell me what you are committed to, and I will tell you what you will be in 20 years. We become what we are committed to."   I kept thinking about this all day pretty much.  

It sent me on a soul searching journey.  What am I committed to?  Because I really want to know what I will be doing in 20 years!  Is what I am doing now going to be beneficial to my future?

Here are the things that I feel I am committed to right now:

1.  I am honestly 100%  committed to my relationship with Jesus Christ.  I am at a place in my life where I am very comfortable sharing my faith journey.  I am committed to growing my faith.  I am not satisfied with status quo or "only on Sunday" religion.  For me it's all or nothing! (to quote a song from the Oklahoma musical) :)

2.  I am committed to our marriage.  I need to work more on date nights and getting babysitters.  I love Kyle.  I have no doubt that we will still be married 20 years from now.  We have our share of "disagreements", :) but I love him and thank God for the gift Kyle has been in my life. 

3.  I am committed to putting our family first above ministry, work and volunteer opportunities. Even though this a work in progress sometimes.  (We really need a family vacation right now.)  I am committed to Emma and taking care of her little needs.  You know the usual demands, "juice, milk, dinner, snack"

4.  I am committed to blooming where I am planted.  God has planted me in the women's ministry at Elmendorf and I committed to see women grow in their relationship with Jesus Christ.  It's one of my greatest passions right now.   I want to do whatever I can to help military wives grow in their relationship with Christ.  Spa nights, ladies night out, retreats, Bible studies, meeting for coffee, or praying for my friends.  Whatever it takes to reach people I am committed to doing that...within reason. ha.  I am committed to the chapel service that God has planted us in for this season.  I love the congregation.  I want to see us reach people for Christ. Whatever it takes to meet people where they are at, that is what I am up for.  

I have a lot of decisions to make this spring that I am praying about.  Doors are opening up for me and I am just really not sure which to walk through.  I am praying about two ministry opportunities. One is continuing on with Protestant Women of the Chapel ministries and the other is possibly taking a board position for the Elmendorf Officer's Spouse Organization. Both are excellent volunteer positions.  PWOC is pretty much all Christian women.  I am praying about either continuing my board position of Programs Vice President or doing something else.  There are two other positions that may be opening up on the PWOC board.   One is president, and I personally don't want to that. I don't feel like I have enough experience to do lead in that capacity.  The other position is Spiritual life Vice President, and I am praying about it.  My flesh really doesn't want to do this job either, because I feel really inadequate and young in my faith. But, I am praying about it and I don't know.  Sometimes I feel like God might be leading me that way.  I really don't know.  I am so foggy on this right now.  I need God to give me clarity.  

The other position with EOSO would just give me a chance to reach people for Christ.  That's how I look at it.  I would be able to build relationships with people outside of the Chapel, mostly non-Christian's, and I know God has placed us at Elmendorf to reach the military community.  I want to do just that.    At the same time, I don't want to get myself over committed and my schedule so full that I become ineffective and unable to fulfill the things that I am most "committed" to....my personal relationship with Christ, and my family life.  

There are moments where I would so love the writing on the wall, because it would be clear which direction to go.  God allows free will though, and I could probably do either thing and it would be great with Him.  Maybe He is just wanting to build my prayer life. Dunno. I think I need more faith to trust.  When I finally figure out which direction God is wanting me to go, I will blog about it and let you know!  This could take awhile!