4th of July, family, travel and trust

Happy 4th, everyone!  It was gorgeous and sunny for the past two days up to about 70-75 which is stinking hot for Alaska.  Yesterday, I power washed the deck to prep for repainting it and of course today it is over cast and looks like could rain.  Oh, well.  There are plenty of other jobs to do inside.  

Kyle's Dad and the boys left Tuesday night, and now we are preparing for my sister to arrive Saturday night.  I am so excited.  I am ready!  

 

The weird thing about Alaska and the 4th is that you have to wait until after midnight to see any fire works at all.   It barely gets dark here at all this time of year.  I kind of miss the fireworks displays I am used to in states that actually have a night. :)

I have been doing a huge catch up because while Kyle was on leave and we had family here,  it was really hard for me stay up with all the mail.  The desk was piling up and that drives me crazy.  Finally, today I was able to file and organize some of the garbage.  I am in such a throw a way mood.  I really should hit my closet next. agh!

 

We are also trying to plan for our trip the the south the end of July.  We always try to go to our annual AG Chaplaincy Conference in July.  It is so worth it.  There have been days this year where I literally just thought if I can just make it to conference I know I will get the encouragement that I need.  Of course, God reminded me that He is always here and I don't need to wait  until the conference to get help.  It is just a wonderful time to be with people who are on the same page and other Chaplain's who really try to love you and mentor you.   It is really an awesome time for us because I sometimes feel like such a novice at this whole military lifestyle.  

Kyle is also going to Squadron Officer School in Montgomery, Alabama the week after the conference, so that is another added stress.  It is a five week school that most captain's in the Air Force attend.   He is still trying to get orders cut, because he can't even talk to the travel people until that is done. Of course everyone is out of the office most of this week  because of the holiday. yeah! ha.  God knows all about this and I know He always has our best in mind. I am trying to go with Kyle to most of SOS, because my family is so close by.  But that adds another stress of trying to figure out the how to get where and also be budget friendly. :(  It will be fun though.  I am really wanting to go with him because I know there are a lot of times that I can't travel with him.  Especially when kids start going to school or when he deploys somewhere I can't visit.  We try to stick together as much as we can. 

I am really trying to learn to trust God with our future.  We visited an awesome church service during Kyle's leave, and the pastor spoke about trusting God.   He said something that I wrote down and have been reminding myself of it about a million times.  "Anxiety is the result of not trusting God with your future".  It is simple but it really hit home for me.  I have struggled so much with this very issue... it seems all year long.   I long for the day when trusting God is something that I can do easily.   Right now, I really struggle with it.  

It reminds me of people who eat at the same restaurants all the time and order the same thing on the menu.  They know it's good and they don't really care to try anything else.  I want to get that way with God.  I want to get to the point where there is no other thoughts in my head but just simply to trust Him.   I think that comes with closeness.  Once I am close enough, I won't have to doubt ever.  Trust will come naturally.   

So, in the midst of a lot of chaos with travel arrangements for Emma, myself and Kyle... I am TRYING to trust God to work it all out.   Lord, I believe, help my unbelief.